Friday, September 09, 2005


I was ten and a half. My extended family visited for the holidays and we all headed to the park for a little game of soccer. The teams: parents vs. kids. We had the speed, the finesse, we all played soccer everyday, we had the victory. Our parents had a little bit of size on us, but I knew that size didn’t matter – plus I knew that my dad was always sore the day after fierce competition so I knew they had the fear factor against them, the game was in the bag. The kids raced out of the blocks scoring quickly and letting the ol’ parents know what the outcome was going to be. They made a slight come back, but we had guts. We had guts and we left them on the field. Somehow our parents pulled out the victory, and as they celebrated in laughter, I ran. I ran and ran, crying violently. They let me run. They let me cry. But when they came to pick me up, they made me shake hands and congratulate everyone. We lost. I lost. I learned something: sometimes you win and sometimes you lose. You can’t read about losing and understand it. You can’t study it, you can’t download it, you have to compete and lose. Some sports leagues in our churches allow everyone to win, a wonderful idea. All the kids go home ‘unhurt’, but I question if any of them go home satisfied. The only analogy that comes to me is extreme, but if you take it simply as an example of a good idea that doesn’t work in this world of sin, it will do. Socialism, a wonderful thought where no one gets hurt, but in my estimation, no one is satisfied--even temporarily, definitely not ultimately. I survived the excruciating loss at ten and a half, and you know what, I think I am better for it. I have since lost in relationships, work, school… and I don’t run, at least not as far, and I don’t cry, at least not as long. I learned, I want to teach. Let’s keep score.

6 Comments:

At Friday, September 09, 2005 9:45:00 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Yep. You said it. It's exactly that sort of thing that shapes us. I pretty much hate that our culture is so caught up in this "self-esteem". The last time i checked, Christ didn't come and die for me to make me feel good about myself. Yes, we are given worth by the grace of God through Jesus Christ, but that is a far cry from self-worth. I have to look to Christ to find love, to be satisfied. That's why so many people aren't satisfied...they are looking for satisfaction in the newest 12 step self-improvement program. Christ came so that we would have abundant life. Abundant.....plentiful amount. What does life consist of? Heart aches that shape us. Joys and celebrations that encourage us. Losses that strengthen us. SO abundant life...as far as I can see just means that until I get to be in heaven with my Daddy, I am going to have a pletiful amount of heart aches and joys and celebrations and losses. If I try to handle those by my own wonderfulness...it's gonna be a mess. But when I deal with all of that life through the grace of Christ, it makes me a vessel for God's glory...and what has more worth on this earth than that?

 
At Saturday, September 10, 2005 11:14:00 PM, Blogger Nikki Leigh Daniel said...

Who wrote this? And which kid are you?

 
At Sunday, September 11, 2005 10:02:00 PM, Blogger Del said...

Good one. I love soccer so much. Why do you think everyone plays it as a kid and then loses the passion for it?

 
At Sunday, September 11, 2005 10:23:00 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

DELL, DELL, DELL, DELL

 
At Thursday, September 22, 2005 3:03:00 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Man we were robbed!!! ;)I had forgotten about that Ben! Thanks for bringing a great memory to mind. God bless you cous...

Scott

 
At Saturday, September 24, 2005 5:26:00 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

i was there!!....but too young to remember!! :(
luv, ASHLEY

 

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